HELLLOOOOOO FABULOUS FRIDAY!!!!!!
I am so happy its Friday, I don't know about you but I certainly am!!!! lol Only because not only will I be celebrating my birthday that just passed on wednesday with friends but I am feeling better about my future everyday that goes by.
If you haven't read up on my previous post, I opened up about my life and whats going on right now and although I was VERY hesitant to talk about it because there are some judgmental people out there ready to cut your throat, I know and understand that in my journey I am going to come across those people and I cant run from them because there are more important people out there that need my help. My previous post was hard to write, I cried the whole time as I had to pour out what I am dealing with. I feel like me putting myself out there to show you my pain but also show you my growth will only build a stronger connection with us. I am learning everyday and more then ever to be obedient. God has been pushing me to write for a long time and again that fear always kicked in and always held me back. You guys loved my blog and I got so much love that I knew if God could show me his face it would be priceless...lol He would be saying I TOLD U SOOOO!!..lol
So today I want to talk about this picture I made thats up top with all the words. I made this pictures years ago and I Promise you I am going to BLOW IT UP because this very picture had giving me so much strength and power that I never thought I had. I took this picture on my own and I edited it as well, which is why you see how blurry it is...lol I can't tell you today I woke up and I was thinking about what FABULOUS topic to talk about and this picture pops up in my head. This very picture I have not looked at much since I made this website. I saw this picture and I just looked at myself and saw that fire in me again. I saw that brave woman working hours and hours and try to be a good single mom. Years ago my oldest son lived with his dad literally full time I saw him once a week sometimes not even that. I had to work to keep the bills paid because it WAS ONLY ME. Now I find myself in that very position again but now with 2 little babies. Where I should be mad as hell that he chose to up and leave and decided to do things his own way instead of co-parenting with me. I chose to FORGIVE.. WHY? (you must think Im crazy right now) I chose to forgive because I will show him just the woman he decided to give up on. I will not let his choice in life to control MY LIFE and I will not let him think I will NEED ANYTHING FROM HIM. His help will be greatly appreciated but I will never beg a man to help me only because I know I can make it. I struggle with myself because like I said in my previous post, we both had wrong in the relationship, although his is worse, I cant sit here and just point the finger on him. I struggle with what if... What if he changed? should I take him back? How will I know he really did? How can I forgive everything? and then its like God said STOP!!! I will let you know all of this when its time. THINK ABOUT YOU!!!! WORK ON YOU!!! BUILD YOU UP AGAIN!!! and we will take it from there...
Ladies I have NEVER felt such a strength in my spirit. I feel like that woman that day that took that picture. that wrote those words, That took much pride in those words. I will live today for ME. Not to be selfish because I cant be happy without my kids, but how can I show them a great life If I am messed up?, How can I tell if he ever will change or not if I am not in my right mind to know? How could I ever let a man see my worth if I DONT KNOW MY WORTH! I Luv Me More was created for a reason and I didn't understand it much because God was pushing to have that name. I have never wanted to Luv myself more then now here in this moment in this journey that I am building I Luv Me More. My biggest fear was that I would seem fake or a hypocrite because how can I talk about loving yourself while I am not even fully there and God told me again STOP... and then I realized I am going to go through this journey with you ladies... That means more to me then you cold ever know. So ladies find that strength in you today. Look at a picture today that you remember your strength, courage, happiness, love, and your BEAUTY!!!! Put that picture where you can see it EVERYDAY!!! Look at it and become that woman again.
ENJOY FABULOUS FRIDAY!!!
Read my previous post to know more about what I wrote today... Hope this inspires you and please comment or email any advice you have, your testimony or your journey right now. I would love to get inspired as well and I would love to go through it with you.