Now I know we are all dragging this monday morning, but if it helps in anyway, we are alive another day! We have a chance to make our situations better whether its bad, ok or even good. If your in a good place in life doesn't mean you should stay there. Enjoy the moment but always keep striving for better.
Today I woke up so happy and sad.
Happy because I am alive of course, happy when I saw my kids next to me and sad that I am not cherishing moments as they pass me by. If you all don't know I am recently going through a break up ( read previous blogs) and it has been taking a lot of my energy for life. I have been and continue to be on this emotional roller coaster that I am even disappointed in myself that I have even allowed this to happen for more then it should. I forget that I once was a child, that I once was a baby to a mother that looked at me and said I want to protect you as much as I can from all pain. I forget that when I look into my kids eyes that they will grow up and the choices they make will be from my choices they seen me make.
I have to cherish these moments with my kids and stop worrying about a relationship that will either get repaired or will never happen again. The hardest part of course is really applying myself to really let go. I have my days where I don't care much of what happens because God is merciful, God is patient and I should be living life that way. God is always on time with his miracles. I look at my kids and they make me want to be a better woman everyday. Don't get me wrong now they STRESS ME sometimes...lol Just yesterday in walmart I silently kept telling God to give me strength because seriously if it wasn't one it was the other. Being a parent is bittersweet, but I can proudly say more sweet then bitter. Its hard right now because I am a single mom but it will get better as it has been, finding my strength as a woman and as a mother I promise I never thought I had this much. I think having a humble heart, positive mind and motivation for a better life makes you NEVER GIVE UP. I never want to give up why? My kids depend on me, My family depend on me, and what God has before me in the future I see others will depend on me. I cant fail when I know I have a purpose on this earth thats big. Some people don't believe me and thats ok. I don't need anyone to believe me because I believe God and I know for sure what he has for me is why I need to stay obedient. I need to stay humble, positive and continue to be strong. IT'S NOT EASY!!! Please understand ladies the more you want to get better in life is when the challenges come full force, you wont expect it, it will sneak up on you and scare the living lights out of you. But thats what makes you see who you are as a person. Thats what makes you find yourself. I am learning who I am everyday by what I do and how I handle it.
Today realize your a miracle, realize that you were a baby once and if you grew up in a broken home, there was a reason but you are Gods miracle and there is a reason your here on this earth. Once you accept that you have a grand purpose in this world and OMG your life will change. Today sit and think about what makes you strong, what gives you the drive and motivation to never give-up and keep that on your mind. Watch you start up a fire in you that you NEVER thought you had. God Bless everyone today and may the rest of your week be filled with nothing but Inspiration.
Be sure to come on here everyday and check out what new videos are up for you, everyday they change and everyday they mix up, from beauty, to inspiration through God, or if your not a believer then just plain inspiration. I don't judge you if you don't have a relationship with christ, so don't feel like me writing about my beliefs I will judge you because I wont. I was once in your shoes, where I doubted God, I was angry with him, I wanted nothing to do with him because I felt like wow God seriously??? I cant take all this pain, I need a break...I was once in your shoes and so take your time and find happiness your way. I just knew that with out God and his word I WOULD BE NOTHING...
So today just know your a miracle and start to believe that you are...
My Miracle babies, My motivation everyday and the reason why I live life and never giving up.