When this song came out I instantly fell in love. Every word was exactly how i felt about you. I listened to it over and over while you were working falling more in love with you. Wanting to be this woman for you so badly that I started losing myself. I loved you so much. I didnt ever want to imagine life without you. I remember wanting us to finally have a break through and to start enjoying life. I wanted you to get better so bad that I would always try to motivate you. I would show you all the songs that reminded me of our love. You were My King, My Everything. I didnt want to believe the lies, I didnt want to believe that you were this cruel person. I wanted to believe that I could be your motivation to be a better man and a father. Instead you kept pushing away and then you ran. The King that I once loved so much that your voice alone would light up my day turned into the man that aims to hurt me everyday. The King in my eyes I would run too when I felt lost and sad is now the man that I cant even tell him I need help with our kids. The king that promised me the world now aims to give me nothing but hell. How did I not see you? How did we get here? How could you hate me so much that you could treat me as if I was never there for you through the hardest times of your life? I use to lay at night thinking what could I have possibly done so bad that I deserved this? When i told everyone I was good, I use to put the kids I sleep early and cry because I missed you so much. I use to beg God to bring you back. How did I not see how evil you are? Where is my King?
Now I continue life working on me. I work on loving myself again and making sure no man can ruin me the way you did. I am so much better in life without you. I have accomplished more in a year then we did together. And everytime I think about how you couldnt just hold on. How you couldnt just stay strong and let the storm pass. For a while when something happensed I wanted to pick up the phone and call you first and then I was reminded of all the pain you caused me. All the lies you told me and how you still treat me, when you were the one that destroyed us. I will keep our good memories and I will cherish them so that my children can remember the good. They dont need to know the bad. I can throw that away and move forward knowing that my God is My King. He always was. He never failed me, never deserted me, never lost faith in me even when I lost faith in him. When you left me alone with so much to fix and take care of, God picked me up and said WE got this.
God is my KING....
When I hear this song I will remember you and I will remember the good times and then I'll move on...