To have someone you love more then the life you have inside you is almost unhealthy. To have that same person turn on you and become your enemy just does more then brake your heart.
To devote yourself to making sure this person know and feel the love you have, only to tell you nothing but hurtful things. To even say you don't love them. Makes you wonder what in the world is going on?? You look at this person as if your hoping they will crack a smile. Hoping that somehow this is a joke! But it isn't, this person told you things like your ungrateful, you don't deserve much. Those words pierce your heart so much your soul feels the pain more.
You just want to fall into a hole and die.
You want to just close your eyes and wait to wake up from this bad dream. You see the cold look on their face as if you discuss them. Its confusing. the next day they say Im sorry, I love you.. You cant believe those words. How can you? Its not easy to be slapped down and picked up so easily. When your mind and heart is still replaying the words that have already scarred you. That have imprinted in your mind so clear it replays without you even wanting too. Is this love? Is this this what a relationship is? why would a person that says they "love you" tell you things to hurt you.
You want to move on so bad but you cant the love you have is so strong that it seems impossible. So what do you do? Let go and move on or try and work things out?
Love is suppose to be so worth it. Love is suppose to heal pain and even though if you expect to be with someone for so long you have to be realistic and know there are going to be moments when you hate each other, don't want to be around each other or just moments your not going to agree on anything. But respect is SOOOOO important. Trust, loyalty, security, friendship, etc... these things keep the love alive even through the tough times. The tough times make you stronger and more in love. Love should conquer all envy and evil things that hate love. If you hold on to love then your going to see the sunshine at the end of the storm.
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