Everything I do has always given me an inspiration and shaped me to be who I am today. Just to warn you now you will often hear or read that I was or am inspired by. Lol
When I was 19 yrs old I was GOING THROUGH IT!!! I could not understand my life at all. I didn’t understand anything, I didn’t know what my true purpose was, all I wanted to do was the right thing. But what was the right thing? I just couldn’t understand it.
I was pregnant, engaged and scared out of my mined for many reasons. I have always dreamed of being married with kids, but I felt like it was just too early. A year later I was a mother and a wife and super unhappy. The question of what if always popped up in my head. I felt l like I was suffocating, I felt like there was so much I needed to learn, and I have always known my purpose, I always knew what God created me here for BUT I was just so lost on why my life was the way it was. I should be happy, I should be OK with being with one person and my son. It’s what I always wanted…. right?
But in my mind, I just knew I wasn’t right, in my heart I felt like I did the right thing but not at the right time. We both wanted to do the right thing and that’s what we focused on but I have always been a firm believer in doing the right thing and being happy doing it. I wasn’t happy in my marriage and not that he was a bad husband because no way was, he but I just knew it wasn’t meant for us to be together.
It was hard to hurt someone that doesn’t deserve to be hurt but its even worse to stay with someone you don’t feel the same way they feel. So, we made the choice to get a divorce, it was hard in the beginning but he understood and always knew I had a great heart. Now during my divorce is when I fell into this movie and I promise changed MY LIFE. There’s a lot of things I’ve seen that has changed me but I PROMISE you this was the beginning of really knowing my purpose and I knew that I was on the road to my journey that God set for me, however I was not prepared for it lol
The movie “EAT PRAY LOVE “really changed me and made me see that even the hard decisions you don’t quite understand but somehow you still follow your heart and that inner voice is what life is. Aiming for your happiness is what truly counts, being good to others, inspiring, making memories, having wonderful friendships and relationship. It’s not being selfish but you can’t stay stuck in things that seem right but you’re not happy in. During the movie she couldn’t find her word, she was so confused, I wish I could fully explain this movie but this will turn into a book. lol Over the course of my 20’s I made many mistakes and I truly can say I don’t regret a thing. Who I am today is based on those hard choices I made, the sacrifices I made, most of all the memories I have to keep me leveled.
My life hasn’t been easy by all means I unfortunately have suffered more; however, I understand that all that suffering, all those dark moments have brought me to this place in life. Where I stand now is amazing and I am so proud of what I have accomplished, the things I’ve overcome and I can’t begin to tell you the strength I discovered within myself. Being a Latina is hard, being a single mom is even harder and by far the hardest job. Together it’s a huge challenge and now starting my own business!!! I can’t begin to tell you how, I am in the most challenging place in my life, yet its exciting and it keeps me motivated to keep doing it all. I refuse to fail and my purpose is being fulfilled. My relationship with God is closer than ever. I adore my kids. I am proud to say I am a woman of many words but one I hold dear to me right now in this place in my life is Courage
I had the courage every time to fight for what I believe in, to stay true to myself and most of all to keep going even when I felt I couldn’t. even when the people I thought would be there for me, and even the ones that betrayed me.
Courage—The ability to do something that frightens one, and strength in the face of pain or grief.